I smell crayons. The waxy aroma sends me straight back to elementary school. The back to school shopping for new clothes, shoes, and school supplies. The excitement of putting notebooks, pencils, glue sticks, and pretty folders into my brand new backpack. Knowing I’d see all my friends again. Not knowing it wouldn’t last–that school could be a harsh and unfair place.
I've been wanting to go back to my childhood so much. Im a sophomore in UiTM now and I miss all the simple happy days of my childhood. I remember so many good times that I had when I was a kid like playing with friends, not having to worry about anything, going to the toy aisle in the store and pick as many as I want, buying candy and junk food, going to the park, and my parents were actually nice to me. Before sleep, my dad will tell a nice story (without a book), playing teacher-student with my cuzie..that because ( I didnt have sibling). Everything was fresh and exciting.
Now it feels like everyday is the same. It's been like this for the past two years. I can hardly remember any memories from these few years because it all just felt like a big blur. Im supposed to be preparing for life but I cant for some reason. I just feel stuck in time trying to be happy. The things I loved doing when I was a kid just dont feel the same anymore. When I try to have fun like I did as a kid it just feels like I'm forcing it.
What can I say?...I miss my childhood so, so, so much. I always wanted to grow up, but now I wish I was back to being a kid again. Things are different when I get older, when age casts a cloud.
I feel older, the sharp edge of maturity clashing on my younger emotions; all the things I used to do, no longer so freely spirited as the past. I had never wanted to be a child. They had no freedom, as I thought,
They were merely little puppets, doted on, coddled, and loved by parents. My thoughts were no longer the childishness of the past,
Am I happy? Yes. Im happy with my life now. I grow as a lady. But sometime I like to refresh to go back to my childhood. how cute i am when I was a baby, kan? Im very childish sometimes !....Well, I wish I have time machine right now. I know it's impossible but who knows kan? A few years later...we will be able to have our own time machine. Ya lah...people now adays suma pandai. Teknologi dah canggih and so on.
Time is running too fast and I afraid of getting older, actually. ahahhahhaha. I dont want my face & all my skin become wrinkled :( THAT's the fact. But, what ever will be, I will enjoy my teenagers life..so that..it can be a good memory for me :)
Wah, at first I have no idea what Im going to write...but here we go, one new entry was done ! ahahhahaha. Thanks for reading, Awesome People ! I really love you guys. heart you deep deep :)
